Dreams and intuition

I’m writing ✍️ this today b because last night I had yet another dream about someone from my past. It is always in the middle of the night that I dream of her.  It is always a waking dream and I wake up feeling frustrated because this person is someone from my past, that caused me a lot of grief and worry and I know I would never let her back into my life. Before Susanna passed over, she begged me to have this person leave my life. Susanna had seen the impact of this person on my life, and wanted me to be free from the pain she inflicted on me,making me mentally unwell.  I intend to honour Susanna’s wishes until my final days because Susannas wishes 🙏🏽 came from a place of love.

Dreams are strange things. They are our unconscious speaking to us and often have profound meaning.  I dream a lot about that ex friend, it is like my mind is reminding me of the impact on my life this friend had. I do still dream of Susanna too, normally sweet, positive dreams that are my subconscious reminding me of what a wonderful person Susanna was.

As frustrating as some dreams can be, they can also be a warning system, that alerts us and makes the knowledge of the subconscious known, and serves as a reminder of events that have impacted us greatly.  It is in the early hours of the morning,  after these waking dreams, that I consciously remind myself to never go through those painful experiences again. In my heart, I reaffirm the decision I made to honour Susanna’s wishes and never open myself up to such grief and pain in my future.  As annoying as the dreams can be, they do serve a greater purpose.  Don’t ignore your dreams they are another way that God and our loved ones communicate with us.

Neil Finn livestream

I had a very beautiful and tranquil start to today. Neil Finn was doing a musical livestream from his home in New Zealand and it was just such a heartwarming, peaceful and serene start to my day. It was available to those fans who a members of the Private Universe website. It was just Neil with an acoustic guitar and a microphone.  He was softly spoken, polite and played requests from fans online the 🌎 world over. At one stage when he was singing Fall At Your Feet, a beautiful love song I put the phone close to Lily’s ear and it was so obvious that Lily loved it. Lily has very definite likes and dislikes when it comes to music, but I think she loved how quiet and serene it was.

I would recommend that if you love all things Finn related from Crowded House to Split Enz,  Fleetwood Mac and beyond it is well worth joining Private Universe for the community and benefits given to the members.  I now no longer need to leave my own home to go to a concert.  Neil brings the concert from his surroundings to yours. I will be avidly tuning in for more in the future.

Seeking serenity and peace

Are you seeking security or adventure?

I’m not seeking adventure or security.  I know when the adventure of moving to The Haven happens it will be more secure.

What I crave most in life is to be surrounded by serenity and the peace of living close to a natural parkland will bring.  It will be a smaller space I move into and I hope with some wise thrifting I can turn it into a cosy, peaceful calm environment for both myself and Lily. I want the theme of the unit to be angels, and I want to have soft pastel tones of pink, mauve and green to add to the serenity of the place.

Sam Neill, Scott Aplin,  Russell,  Adrian  Lani and Liz

If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite?

If I could host a dinner party and people were sure to come I would invite Sam Neill for the interesting conversation and the good wine 🍷 he would bring.  I would invite Scott Aplin because he is lovely 😍 and he would play the piano 🎹 to keep us entertained.

I would also invite my friends Russell  Adrian,  Lani and Liz because they are wonderful company and would enjoy the company of Sam and Scott as much as I would.

Bedtime and wake time.

What time do you go to bed and wake up currently?

I must say that my bedtime and the time I wake up is slightly out of kilter at the moment because I have a cold 🥶.

Normally bedtime 🌙 is about 9.00 pm.  I usually wake once in the early morning 🌄 around 1.00 am to 2.00 am. I then drift back off to sleep and wake up around 5.30 am. I get out of bed sometime between 6.00 am and 7.00 am and take Lily for a walk around 7:30 am in the warmer months. This winter I have been walking Lily around 9.00 am when it is slightly warmer. I put my phone on charge in the bathroom around 7.00 pm,  so I am not disturbed or distracted by it in the night. It is my nightly digital detox and helps me to sleep well.

What I am most excited about.

What are you most excited about for the future?

My writing ✍️ is always the main thing in my life that brings me the most excitement and joy, both this blog and my other writings ✍️.

The other thing that most excites me is the hope that I will be moving home in the not-too-distant future.  I am hoping to move to The Haven which is under construction at present and when it is finished it will be stable long-term social housing for people with mental health issues.  This is my dream home 🏡 in many ways as I will have my own unit to live independently with Lily,  and also have support 24/7 from social workers etc as needed.  It means my family won’t need to worry about my future as I will have stability in my housing.  Fingers crossed that this all works out.