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To my readers I have a confession to make. I have schizophrenia, but I don’t think that is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I think my experience of schizophrenia has made me a better person, because I am an empath and I often feel other people’s pain, which is both a blessing and a curse. It is a blessing because I have compassion and can listen to other people’s sad stories of being victimised and stigmatised and really relate, but being an empath I can feel the emotional pain of these people and want them to know there are people who care when they are suffering and if you have a little faith, there will always be someone who will listen and say I HEAR YOU.

I have a strong faith in God and this has guided me throughout my darkest hours, when it feels like no one cares or understands, and when the negative thoughts become agonising I force my mind to feel better, by doing something caring and positive for a loved one ❤️. I believe goodwill generates goodwill and doing something nice for someone helps my own healing. There is way too much negativity surrounding a diagnosis of schizophrenia, the stigma is awful to bear from cruel small minded people who believe that people with schizophrenia are evil and inferior. My experience of it is that this judgement of us, contributes to and compounds the more negative symptoms and leads to people self harming, comfort eating and feeling suicidal. Just how many people have committed suicide because the emotional pain caused by stigma is to hard to bear.

Honestly battling schizophrenia feels like a war in your mind between good and evil. I am a highly functioning person and I am determined when I am unwell that evil is not going to claim me. I make myself think positive and go put of my way to think kindly of myself and my loved ones. I am truly grateful for the good people in my life, who have some compassion for the impact on me of this spiritual 🙏 battle. I will always advocate for the basic human rights of those who suffer like I do, and I will always listen to and make time to treat people well and empower them to have faith and be positive in their life. When you are feeling disempowered, you need to find whatever works to empower you. What empowers me is my belief in angels. That God sends us angels, as his employees to heal the damage caused by people who stigmatise mental illness. I truly have met some wonderful people working in mental health, my psychiatrist in particular. My psychiatrist is a very wise man and we often talk about faith and people having a life purpose. My purpose is to bring a little empathy, compassion and care to those having such a spiritual battle. I’m not an angel, just a human brought up to be loving and caring.

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What experiences in life have helped be grow the most?

What experiences in life helped you grow the most?

There are several experiences in life that have helped me to grow.  Most obviously my mental health diagnosis helped me grow the most. It rocked my world 🌎 to its very core and brought on the greatest changes in my life’s journey. It gave me a career and experiences I otherwise wouldn’t have experienced and brought some pretty wonderful people into my life’s journey

My marriage also helped me grow and the way it ended needed to happen for my very well-being.  My marriage turned out to be a growing experience for me and i learned the hard way just what I was willing to put up with and when to draw the line in the sand of what was unacceptable for me.

Losing Susanna  Dad and Michael have helped me to grow and you never forget these people,  the grief just gets easier to live with as time  goes on. As we age we experience more and more grief and it remains a learning curve in our life.

Do I believe in fate/ destiny?

Do you believe in fate/destiny?

Yes of course I believe in destiny.  Too much has happened in my life that could not be coincidence.  Everyone in our lives comes into our life for a reason.  Some only stay for a season and some people are kindred spirits who come into our life forever more.  The most valued people in my life are those who share our journeys and the feelings are powerful. These are the people that God has brought into our lives, because we are soulmates at our very core and God wishes our lives to  become entwined.  A soul mate doesn’t have to be a romantic relationship,  as there are many forms of love and our soul mates share similar life purposes and values in this world 🌎 ❤️ so yes I do believe in fate.

Six Seven

If you could permanently ban a word from general usage, which one would it be? Why?

If there were one term I would ban from general usage it would be the ultra trending term “six seven”. It has become a buzz word a term m that is now constantly used in conversation as a slang term. I much prefer the terms so so or neither here or there and don’t sound childishly present like six seven. Please 🙏🏽 God eradicate this term from its present high standing and stop it being in everyday use.

A beautiful family function

As I write this it is a lovely Monday morning 🌄 here in Melbourne.  The sun has not long risen,  the air is fresh, still and crisp.  I’ve already taken Lily for a walk as the sun came up and I find myself in a happy, contented and reflective mood..

At the weekend my youngest niece Lana got married. The baby of the family has become a beautiful young woman, she looked angelic and it’s hard to believe how quickly the time has passed, and she is a grown woman. It seems like just yesterday that she was a tiny premmie baby in a humidicrib.  She’s always been special  a wise contented quirky happy soul. Peter and Kathy did a wonderful job raising all three of their children.

The wedding reception was absolutely fantastic.  My good friend Adrian partnered me for the occasion and I was sitting next to my brother Peter, as father of the bride and opposite my brother David. I feel privileged.  I got to be cloae to two of my favourite people in all the world 🌎.  Adrian knows my family very well,  having been my friend for about 30 years now, and I consider 🙏🏽 him part of my extended family.. The reception was held at an Italian restaurant on the site of what used to be The Mercy hospital,  where Lana was born. It seems fitting she celebrated her wedding  on the same site she came into the world 🌎.   I had such a lovely time and I feel that the natural high I am expecting will last for awhile yet. I am truly blessed with a wonderful family.

My favourite people.

Who are your favorite people to be around?

There are lots of people i love to be around, including my  family, in particular, my brothers and my nephews and nieces. The friends I love to be around are many . These include,  Kathryn, Russell Zohreh, Adrian,  Liz Lani, Helen, Barbara and Sherree. In the past the people whose company I cherished the most where Susanna and Michael. Everyone comes into our life for a reason,  some only for a season and some come forever more.

If God could grant you one wish what would it be?

Today I am thinking about my loved one’s and my faith as we come together as a family this weekend to celebrate 🥳 🎉 🎊 🍾 Lana’s wedding .

I was thinking about wishes being granted by God and if God granted me one wish it would be to have one more high tea with my passed over angel 😇 lady Susanna.  I would love just one more high tea where I could tell her about my life now, my writing ✍️ career and all the wonderful things happening in the lives of my loved ones ❤️.  She would be rejoicing at Lana’s wedding and excited to see photos of Evelyn, Mason and Theo. Just to see her smile and hear her voice and laughter.  It is these things miss the most from my darling angel 😇 lady, my spiritual sister . I would thank her for bringing Rebekah and Kathryn into my life. I would love the opportunity to tell her how much she is loved and missed..

But you know I believe she knows all of this already because she is an angel 😇 who watches over me all the time. I am truly blessed with her angelic presence.