I’ve experienced a lot of jealousy.

I’m writing ✍️ this blog today because I am in a reflective mood.   A good friend pointed out to me that a past friend of mine seemed to have always been jealous of me.  This has got me thinking, and I believe that to be true of that past friend, looking back over the years, I now see exactly how jealous this friend was of me. I think in my early 20s, this jealousy began over my 21st birthday. I was spoilt by family and friends for that bitthday, and I think this particular friend was really jealous of the attention I received.  I think she thought I came from a rich family because both of my parents were working at the time.

Years later and this friend had some truly horrible things happen in her marriage and I was always there for her emotionally supporting her from one crisis to the next.  This friend was always seeking financial support which I couldn’t provide regularly because of my own circumstances.

This friend is no longer a part of  my  life as supporting her throughout every crisis brought on my own mental health issues with worry for her. She was so jealous of my friendships with Adrian, Russell, and in particular Susanna.  To say this person was a vampire who sucked all the energy out of me and Susanna is an understatement. At the time, Susanna was battling cancer and needed support herself.  It was not until Susanna’s last few months that I realised exactly how much she had taken advantage of Susanna.  I have learned the hard way not to give such people my energy or precious time because they negatively impact my mental health and I choose not to focusu on them instead giving my energy to those I love and cherish for being lovely people. If someone is jealous of you, it says more about them than you.