LISTEN TO POSITIVE GUIDANCE.

Last week I spoke about being kind to yourself and not beat yourself up other things you can’t change. Sometimes I need to listen to my own advice. I am more blessed than I realise.

Yesterday I received some wonderful news that I am going to be a great Aunty for the first time. I am ecstatic and deliriously happy for my niece, but after a few hours I found myself lamenting the fact that I am childless and always will be. Most of the time I live quite peacefully with that fact. I married too old and then had fertility issues, making that impossible for me.

I am genuinely happy for my niece and know that I will ❤ love and cherish her child dearly. I am blessed that I have wonderful relationships with all my nephews and nieces.

I didn’t stay in my negative state very long, and am blessed with wonderful and supportive friends whom only think the best of me. I woke up to the fact that I was upset over factors I have no control over and realised yet again that I have been put on this earth to be a loving, empathic and compassionate person to those people God has brought into my life.

I am normally a happy person and nothing keeps me down for very long. If there is anything I have learned about myself it is that I am extremely resilient. I bounce back quickly. A few months ago I experienced a return of my mental health issues after a friendship had turned toxic. I was blessed in hospital because I made two new friends that have blossomed into wonderful relationships.

I know that I am on this earth for a reason, something about mental illness being better understood and to be positive, happy and loving.

In only a few hours I am feeling so much better. So what, if I don’t have a child of my own, my life is so rich and meaningful in other ways. My nieces and nephews have an Aunty whom adores them, and I have fulfilling friendships with a lot of people.

I have started to write my blog, to bring a positive voice in a world that is just too negative at times. To be honest I have much to be happy about and writing brings me pure pleasure. If I can bring a little pleasure or kindness to my readers then my blog has done its job.

I know one thing for sure. My nieces baby is going to grow up very loved by its great Aunty and I intend to be a positive and good one. To Grace and Chris, this is wonderful news and may God bless you, your child will be loved by all. I can’t wait to meet your special little human.I am so happy and this means good things ahead. God does exist, he brings little miracles into the world.

It I cant be a mother myself I will be a Great Aunty. Just you wait and see.