The music buffs who read this blog will know that the title of my blog this time is actually a song title from the latest Crowded House album Dreamers Are Waiting. Bad Times Good sums up how I feel about life at the moment. I am going through some sad times after the death of my dear angel lady Susanna, but I am also experiencing some silver linings in the cloud..

Yes I miss Susanna like crazy, but this challenging time has brought a wonderful new friend into my life. Kathryn. Kathryn too was a dear friend of Susannas and our mutual love for her, has meant we have developed a wonderful bond of comforting and reminiscing of good times ⏲️ and beautiful memories. Never have I developed a friendship, so deeply, so quickly. Kathryn and I now have a lovely bond and I feel I can trust her like I trusted Susanna. I know in the last months of her life that Susanna had wanted to meet up with both Kathryn and myself and Susanna passed on with the knowledge Kathryn and I were communicating and fast becoming important to one another. God truly does move in mysterious ways 🙏.

I truly believe that every 🙏 cloud has a silver lining. This has happened in my life countless times, so it can’t be false.

My true friends have rallied around me at this time ⏲️. Everybody adored Susanna and I know my friends are happy that I have made a new friend whilst life can be its most challenging. Kathryn is a blessing and I know she like Susanna is another angel 😇 💙 lady, put on this earth 🌎 to do good and spread love.

Life can’t be totally terrible whilst grieving a loved one. God will always shine a light in the clouds ⛅️ if we are open, trusting and loving. Susanna is an angel now at home 🏡 in heaven smiling down on Kathryn and myself.

Yes Bad Times Good. If only the talented Finn family songwriters are aware just how meaningful their songs are. I highly recommend the album Dreamers Are Waiting. It is an album that sums up life in this pandemic affected society.

Last week I wrote a blog post about being caught in a holding pattern waiting for news of Susanna.

The plane has now landed. Susanna passed away quietly early Wednesday morning. That news put an end to the agony of waiting for Kathryn and myself. Air traffic control handled the end of the ✈️ flight as gently as possible for myself, Kathryn and Susannas family and loved ones.

The whole journey with Susanna has been the most uplifting and inspiring journey of my life. I am a better person for having known Susanna. I intend to take a leaf out of Susannas book and love life and treat every person with love and kindness. Life is too short and too meaningful to do otherwise.

My darling Susanna you are my sister and your angelic presence has lighted my way like no other. The life I live now and how I choose to live it will be a tribute to your loving, happy nature.

You are home now in heaven and we will meet again Rest in peace beautiful angel lady ❤️ 💕 ✨️ 💖 ♥️ 💜 ❤️

Life sometimes can be like being caught in a holding pattern. On a plane circling the city awaiting clearance from air traffic control, that all is clear to land the plane.

This is what it feels like for me, Kathryn and my loved 😍 💙 ❤️ 💕 ♥️ ones waiting for news on Susanna. We are waiting to hear about Susanna whom is in palliative care at the Olivia Newton John Centre. We know the time is drawing near and jump everytime the phone rings. We are expecting contact with Rebecca, Susannas daughter, whom at the moment is the air traffic controller seeking to give us the news, that our plane can land, but Kathryn and I are torn, as we are not 100% percent ready for this flight to end. We know the end is near and hope Susanna passes in peace having been so loved.

To my other friends and readers I apologise both for my distance and my writings ✍️ of late focusing on Susanna, but I am literally losing my best friend, my soul sister. I am amazed and so grateful for the love ❤️ and goodwill shown to me by my friends who all know Susanna well and collectively we are already going through the stages of grief. I will miss Susanna so greatly, but know she will be an angel in heaven watching over me. She truly is an angel lady as I fondly call her.

Please 🙏 God let the rest of the flight that myself and Kathryn are on, be a holding pattern of goodwill and peace. This entire journey with Susanna has been so inspiring, empowering and uplifting. This is one flight ✈️ that air traffic control intends to run smoothly…..

It is that time of year again. It is Easter and I am thinking about this event on the religious calendar, and thinking about my beliefs and my spiritual 🙏 ❤️ home.

As a spiritual home I would have to say that it is Brunswick Baptist Church. It is the most accepting and loving church I have ever encountered. I feel loved and accepted there, and although I rarely now attend church, because of distance and covid issues, I still feel connected to that church. It is where I meet Russell, Carl and Gisele, Iolanda and Zohreh. These people I ❤️ love and value so much. They are true Christians . I have worked out that you don’t need to attend church regularly to be a Good Christian, it is about how you go about your everyday life with a grateful and gracious 🙏 heart.

I certainly do have a faith and that comforts me in my most challenging times. I definitely believe in angels and know I have been blessed 🙌 😇 🙏 with angelic presences like Susanna.

At Easter time I like to reflect on the Easter story and give thanks for the things I am blessed with. This year in particular I give thanks for the love ❤️ and beauty Susanna has brought into my life as she struggles with cancer.

We all have a lot to be thankful 🙏 for particularly as the world 🌎 continues to battle the pandemic. I feel grateful for my health and well-being. I pray that this pandemic will end eventually and we can get back to the normality of loving one another.

I wish my readers peace and happiness at this most holy time.

There but for the Grace of God go I. It is something we say when people are in more unfortunate circumstances than our own. Lately I have been thinking about Gods grace as I deal with the fact that my closest friend is nearing the end, after a long struggle with cancer.

I have gone through many different emotions recently from shock to grief and anger, bargaining and now acceptance.

I know that Susanna is loved, is an angel and will be missed greatly by a lot of loved ones on this 🌎 earth. I know there are many people waiting for her on the other side.

All I wish for Susanna is a peaceful, gentle passing. I am no longer selfishly holding on to her. I have accepted Gods will and am letting her go. She is and was a free spirit and she will be an angel up above, loving and caring for me from heaven. Heaven was made for Susanna and I have many beautiful memories of her that I will treasure forever more. I will in the future write ✍ some of those memories in my blog. A lot of women on this 🌎earth would love and appreciate Susannas legacy.

Go in peace my dear angel lady.💞💖🌈🌟🐶😇

The radio silence is the worst. Waiting in agony for some news.

Expecting the worst. Hoping that ii won’t happen, but knowing deep down it will.

Thinking of memories and remembering the love. I know you will be near me for eternity. Missing your presence and wanting it to continue

Hoping that soon you will be free from suffering. Losing you is sweet agony.

Agony that you will soon be gone Friendship like ours is always sweet, but in the end it is bitter-sweet.

Waiting for word, waiting in vain.

I love ❤️ you dearly my treasured angel lady 💛 💓 💖 💗 🌈🌟🐶😇

I am struggling at the moment .

I am preparing for the worst

However do we prepare for sad times ahead.

My beautiful angel lady 💖 💗 is being called back to heaven.

Although she is still around I am preparing myself for her not being here

It is hard to see God at work, when someone so lovely is suffering.

I tell myself that she will always be with me, as angel watching over me in this 🌎 world and the next.

I will miss her more than words can express.

She is gifted, beautiful, generous , empathetic, and compassionate. She has a beautiful sense of humour, that is quite mischievous.

If ever anyone is an angel sent from God it is her.

I tell myself all of the above to help me cope with losing her 💔

My beautiful angel lady , there but for the grace of God go I. You have taught me so much and enriched my life.

I am a better person for having known you.

Go in peace and love ❤️ my darling angel lady. I love you forever more.

What is true beauty?

Is it the way we look on the outside.? The make up some wear as a mask for the world to see?

I think not. In my time I have meet some people, who although are attractive on the outside, are made ugly by the behaviour they put out to the world. Selfish and self obsessed is so rarely beautiful.

If we judge purely on appearances, then there are a lot of beautiful people who on the inside are rotten to the core.

Truly beautiful people are those with a heart so big and so loving that the warmth they radiate warms even the coldest of environments.

The smile of a beautiful soul makes all around them wrapped in joy.

Truly beautiful people are oblivious to how lovely they are. They are not concerned with appearances they have true grace .

I have met some truly beautiful people on my journey and they are not the beauty queens, but those with a happy, mischievous angelic nature. These people are gracious and kind indeed. They do not seek trophy’s or accolades.

Truly beautiful people have a healthy sense of self worth and are gracious and to a certain extent are oblivious to the impact they have.

I see beauty not with a fake made up face, but with the love that is freely and unselfishly given.

To become a beautiful person, we need to work on ourselves from the inside out .

Let’s all become more ❤️ loving and generous and watch as love grows for us, making those we share our journey with more beautiful and enriched.

My truly beautiful angelic presences I love you 😍 ❤️ ❤️.

It’s a question as old as time itself.

What makes a friend?

I believe the friends we have we were destined to meet.

It is no coincidence whom comes into our lives

Shared experiences

Sometimes spiritual

Shared interests

Empathy for one another on our shared journeys

Compassionate shown through actions

Non judgemental support.

Good times and good memories.

Everyone enters a life for a season

Fair weather friends disappear like the wind

True friends stay with us forever

In this world and the next.

There is a gift 🎁 to knowing our true friends.

And it remains a gift forever and a day.

Let’s hope this message 🙏 makes you think of your friends.

Count the blessings of a true friendship. The blessings can only be measured by our hearts 💕