Anything given to me by Susanna

What are your two favorite things to wear?

I know I have answered this question before and I would have to say that nothing has changed. My two favourite pieces of clothing are any of the many things given to me by Susanna. The green 💚 dress she gave me as a Christmas gift when she was still alive and the formal black and gold dress 👗 she bought me for the cruise 🛳 would have to be my favourites,but I so rarely get to wear them. Amongst my comfortable day to day clothes my favourite would be the demin shirt dress 👔 that Kathryn gave me when she took me shopping 🛍 the last time I was in hospital 🏥 nearly 3 years ago would be my favourite.

Writers block

I love the felling of being inspired and in the right headspace to write. I am feeling great because I had been experiencing writer’s  block when it came to my my recent book The Angel Lady.  I’ve just felt compelled and inspired to write more and added about two pages to the story in the time frame of about 20 minutes. I feel exhilaration and immense happiness that my writing ✍️ drought about where to go next with the story is over. Yeah I feel good. If I could work out how to attach the novel to this post I would.

I dreamt of my teenage crush again.

Early this morning I awoke from the type of dream I often have about a boy from my secondary college called Adrian Fumani. Adrian was a guy I had a secret crush on in my final year of secondary school.  It was so secret that the only person who knew was my friend Vicki, and to this day Vicki has kept my secret.

Adrian was one of the in crowd at school.  He may have had an italian name, but he definitely was part of the group of Aussie guys at school who were into surfing 🏄‍♂️,  Midnight Oil,  Hunters and Collectors etc.

I can remember dancing with him and his friends to the Daddy Cool song 🎵 Eagle Rock at the year 12 end of year formal. Now whenever I hear Eagle Rock I think of Adrian and that formal.

Unfortunately Iife went on and the last time I saw Adrian was during my days at Melbourne University where I think Adrian may have been studying engineering. The last time I saw him it was at a concert in Melbourne University’s grounds by Mark Seymour the lead singer of Hunters and Collectors.  I remember seeing Adrian in the audience.

So I don’t confuse my readers I have a close mate called Adrian for many years now, but he is not a past crush like Adrian Fumani. It is only today that I have found the courage to write ✍️ of my teenage crush because from time to time on a semi regular basis I dream of my teenage crush.  They are always similar dreams and Adrian still looks like the young man of my memories.  Isn’t it funny how people never age in our dreams.

Thank you Vicki for keeping my secret safe for so many years.  I have good memory of high school because of what a good friend Vicki was.

Something truly lovely 😍 happened

This week I have received some lovely and kind feedback about the two books I have written those being The Dance Of The Emerald Dress and God Bless Our Dogs.  It fulfilled me in a way that I really haven’t felt before.

How it all came about was about a fortnight ago my brother Peter invited me to his house to meet some relatives who Peter wished to share what he has found out about our family through Peter investigating 🔎 our family 🌳 tree. Peter’s wife Kathy was present, as was our Mum, our cousin Debbie and Mum’s cousin Rosemary.  I had brought copies of both books 📚 I have written to give to Debbie and Rosemary.   I gave them the books without an expectation of response.   I thought nothing of it until yesterday I received an email from Peter forwarding a letter to me, through Peter, because Rosemary hadn’t my contact details. The letter was so eloquently written and gave me a lot of praise about both books. Rosemary spoke of her life, growing up going to dances 🕺and wearing  a beautiful ballgown.  She understood my characters love of dancing 💃 and coming of age story. She spoke of her own love of dogs 🐕 and loved that God Bless Our Dogs is a little very spiritual book. I don’t think I have ever felt as heard and as understood about my writing even though I know my friends and loved one’s do really love my writing ✍️.  I guess because Rosemary’s praise was such a surprise that I feel it alot on the inside. Today I find myself standing a little taller and smiling 😃 alot . My writing ✍️ means so much to me, it was what I love ❤️ most in this world 🌎 other than Lily.

Extra time

If you didn’t need sleep, what would you do with all the extra time?

If I didn’t have to sleep in would use the extra time to hone my writing 🙃 😅 skills by continuing to write my book about Susanna’s life in heaven called The Angel Lady and to write ✍️ more blog posts 📫 as well.

I would also give a lot of attention to Lily and my loved one’s 😍 🥰 ❤️ ♥️ 💕.   I would write beautiful gift cards to my loved ones with warm encouraging messages. I would spend the time spreading goodwill in the world 🌎.  We reap what we sow in this life so I would use my time wisely.

My 3 top pet Peeves

Name your top three pet peeves.

  1. My first pet peeve are those people who perpetuate the stigma of mental illness.   I have a mental illness and sometimes people assume because of the stigma that I am going to behave in a particular way.   A lot of people are surprised by me because in their mind I am not a typical mentally ill person.
  2. My second pet peeve are those people who are cruel to or mistreat animals . I don’t like this in people and don’t allow those who are cruel to animals be in my circle of loved ones
  3. My third pet peeve are those people without basic empathy and compassion for their fellow humans.  Again I don’t let such people be a part of my circle of loved ones.

I still feel her presence

Although it has been a few years since Susanna passed away and returned to her real home 🏡 heaven I do still feel the impact of her presence in my life. There is just so much that has happened in my life that can’t be chalked up to coincidence.  I feel her presence and her love for me to this present day. I know she watches over me and that as an angel she does Gods work and comes to give me messages through my intuition thoughts and dreams.

I feel that God and Susanna are handling 🙏🏽 the situation of my future home, and that they are helping me to be patient as I wait to hear about The Haven.  God has plans for us all and I have no doubt that God is working 🙏🏽 with Susanna and my other angels to work on the best case scenario for me.  I am praying 🙏🏽 that I have an answer soon. I’m praying 🙏🏽 for a Christmas 🎄 miracle,  that i will have an answer for Christmas 🎄 but I am also being realistic and know everything happens in Gods time.

I feel like Susanna is still actively being my sister in heaven and has brought people like Kathryn, Sherree and Casey into my life to guide the way and support me with their friendship ❤️. We never really lose our loved 😍 ones when they pass over, our relationship with them changes and our beautiful 😍 memories of times long past stick with us,  and the love continues in another way.