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Today, I experienced a self actualisation.   When I was young, I wanted to be an author when I grew up, and I knew I knew I wanted to live a life less ordinary .  It occurred to me now that I have achieved this.

When I was young, my idol was Helen Keller, who never let her disability dictate the success of her life.  A bit like Helen, I never let my mental illness dictate the success of my life.   I challenge the notion of what a person with mental health issues can achieve. I live independently and have some wonderful people and experiences that make up my life..

When I was young, I never visualised  myself of being married with a lot of children. I visualised myself as being independent and having a dog 🐕. I wanted to be an individual and unique.  I used to want relationships, and in my early 20s, it was the centre of a lot of attention from the opposite sex.  When I moved out of home to be independent, I experienced a lot of  attention from men who were inappropriate, to say the least.  This attention changed my view of the 🌎 world  the attention I received was from some truly awful people. I married late to someone incapable of understanding what the vows of marriage mean.  This experience has made me celibate by choice, and I do believe it makes me a far more interesting person.  It occurred to me today that I have a lot in common with my female role models, I am living a life less ordinary and feel that with my experience of life, I have a lot to offer.  I still find some members of the opposite sex very attractive. I like how Simon Baker looks, and I think Scott Aplin is probably the most attractive man I have seen in a long time. I still have eyes to notice what is attractive. I just choose not to get involved . I have some wonderful male friends and don’t take them for granted, but I am contented in saving my love for Lily and focus on my writing.  I have become the writer with the interesting life that I envisioned myself being as a child. I am confident and an individual when it comes to living my life, and I treasure the role people like Susanna and Michael have played in making me the person I am today.